Even though the story took place downtown in a major city, there were no other women in the frame, though the character did frequently interact with men of all ages & walks of life. You say that not many people are interested in your passions.
This is true of the Hollywood world, too, where there aren’t even enough women in crowd scenes. You need shy people who are trying to connect with each other and the sexiest/awkwardest dance to The Commodores’ Night Shift in recorded history. Have you looked all around your university community, or your dorm, or your study program?
We grow up, we figure it out, we stop doing that stuff.
It is unlikely, being as self-aware as you are now, that you will repeat those same mistakes.
I get really confused and I pick up a lot of body language, but I have no understanding of social cues. Dear Awkward & Lonely: My own time as a Nice Girl(tm) is well-documented on this blog, so, take hope?
It’s a pattern of behavior, not a permanent designation or identity.
I’m fast becoming isolated, I’ve zero self confidence and my self esteem has taken a nose dive, a combination of truly looking into the mirror for once and a mystery illness.
I don’t think I look handsome, but a lot of people have said that I do.
The few people I’ve really sparked with are all in relationships.2) Seek out new activities and build on the interests and passions that you already have in a way that brings you into contact with more people. Some of those will be in your age group/dating pool or know someone who is.3) When you have the time and energy for it, try out online dating sites to practice dating. 4) Be really nice to yourself and take good care of yourself.And there is absolutely nothing wrong with being a late-bloomer, or in delaying romance and sex until you meet the right person or feel ready.I know it’s a bummer to get crushes on people who are already coupled up, but you are sparking with people!For most of my teenage years, I didn’t need people and I didn’t need love.